A good boy

Sooo.... I think it's pretty obvious that I am the jealous type, but I don't act out so dramatically (unlike some people). I'm pretty calm and devoted and all that shit so I hate whoever created or invented me because he's such a douche, I mean really who wants a gallant man? Who wants a gentleman who doesn't stick up for or fight for or at the very least try to take what is rightfully his? I mean, ten years! Ten years! Am I not going to stand for that?

...No. No, I'm probably not. I'm just going to be a good boy. :-\

Luca wrote to Jan Jan!

Yes, Luca wrote to Jan Jan, but he didn't write to me. That bastard. I thought we had a friendship...I guess Jan Jan is special.


So how did I know? No, people, I didn't acquire this knowledge illegally. Jan Jan entered our room yester-night, holding a letter and said, "I got a letter from Luca." And he wasn't smiling. He seemed... nervous?
Excitedly, I told him to open it and read it aloud. He was aghast. He said we should just read it together (shy boy).


Here's what the letter said:


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Dear Jan Jan,

 Yo. Hugo and Alfie kept pestering me about writing you, so I gave in. I can only take so much of their voices, you know? They told me I should write you and inspire you. Well I hope it works because then I just wasted time writing a stupid letter for a stupid reason.
  On to what I'm interested in, how's school? I heard you got Zonvelf as your room mate. Be careful around that birdie, I never did trust him. Maybe there's some cute girl there that you're interested in and I should break up with you? I mean, it's such a hassle... I never liked "long-distance" relationships. It's so.... primitive.

I've run out of things to say. Alfie just broke a leg. Again. Without you around I'm stuck trying to "heal" these two idiots you left me with. You should know I hate you for that. A lot. I don't like idiots.... Which is why you should study really really really hard. 

P.S. Say "hi!" to Lei for me. I miss him and I know he'll pull a tantrum when he finds out I didn't mention him here.

double P.S. Fuck you, Zonvelf. I know you're reading this.

Sincerely Yours,
Luca.
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Why does Luca always find out these weird things? But more importantly, I've never even heard Luca say so many things at once. It's so weird to imagine him saying these things in my head.... No wonder he doesn't write much to me (I still feel bitter, though). But even more importantly that what was just important, Jan Jan SIGHED after reading the letter. Was he not content? Well... Luca did write it kind of harshly... He could've been more sweet. It even seemed like he was implying that Jan Jan is an idiot... only Alfie, Hugo and Lei are idiots. Jan Jan, Luca and I are above average when it comes to intellect.


I asked him if he was going to write back, but Jan Jan said he wasn't. YEAH RIGHT! I saw a letter under his bed this morning.... and it kind of tugged at my heart. I opened it and it only said:

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~  
Dear Luca,
I miss you too.

  love, Jan Jan. 
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

And then I just stared.  Poor Jan Jan, I don't think he has any plans of sending it... But I'll be the one who sends it for him. :-) I hope Luca (I don't think Jan Jan would) appreciates it.

relatioships

My fear is breaking a relationship...like a friendship, or a marriage, or a girlfriend(ship?).
I mean, it feels like wasted time, if any of my relationships were to break.
Plus, I don't really enjoy fighting with people. :c

I'd tell you but then I'd have to kill you

Diamond keeps telling me that the first person I met in wca is Nigel Thorton. But he's wrong. ):-| I don't even know the dude that well.

Anyway, the first person I met in WCA is Paris. I'm the first one she met, too, but she doesn't remember that (the stubborn bitch). I was about 219 years old in real time (I was in my pre-teens). During that time, I was going back and forth Venus and Uranus, helping out Sir Theodore. The war was still fresh and sensitive; it was a busy time. On my second year of working under sir Theodore, I met Paris. She was about 179 Venusian years old (I'm not sure how to convert that in my time, but she was still a child tree when I met her).

At first, she was just that odd little tree who stuck her nose on others' business. I found her quite irritating. And whenever I was in Venus, I would always chance to see her in some sort of trouble...and since I'm a good guy, I can't just leave her, right?
That was how our friendship started; me saving her. She began to be even more nosy (and at some point I thought she was a spy). She kept accompanying me on my errands even though I kept telling her to "shoo".

What got me to come to like her, apparently, was when she got caught between the war. Uranus was attacking the place where she played, mostly... and for the first time, I was actually scared (it never occurred to me that I had emotions). I thought she was going to die! That was really a horrible thought, since she was my only friend. No one else showed much interest in me other than her and Sir T's friends (but they were old hags; Paris was my first young friend). I ran towards the battlefield, desperately searched for her, and found her, at last. I still remember how relieved I was when I saw her crying, dirty little face (I could feel relieved! What a discovery!).

Ever since that day, I would play with her somewhere. She didn't know her parents. She woke up, one day, and she was alone. Touched my heart :'-(... I spent a total of ten years working under sir T between Uranus and Venus... So I reckon we've been friends for that long. I was 229 years old when Sir T brought me back to Castor, since the war was ending and he didn't want to have to take care of the aftermathh. I promised Paris I would come again, so she wouldn't be so sad. I never got to see her again, after that day, but I looked for her! ):-| I looked for her everywhere but I couldn't find her! I eventually gave up, but I know that I was still looking for her (only with less effort).

And then I saw her again, obviously. I never thought of her as anything other than a friend or a pesky younger sister, but, by Zeus, did she ever captivate me when I laid eyes on her again. How in the fuck did she grow up so gracefully? And how come she can't remember me? Ten fucking years of friendship and she forgot all that? That's like throwing all those years away.

Well, I guess it's because I'm an AIDA that I can remember, but still.
I've told you too much. It's time to zip my mouth now. I mean, I'd tell you but then I'd have to kill you.

A picture

I got Ceika dude to take a picture of Tama without his bandanna! I feel so glee :)
... What's with the silken wear?? :-|

Still, I wanna just snag that bandanna off his hands!

My 'lil date (oh the pun)

My date with Lil started out nice. She asked me how I fell in love with Paris, and I was more than willing to tell my story. I was feeling a little shy, though, because some people couldn't help over-hearing. And by over-hearing I mean eavesdropping! >:-(
For most of the 'date', we stayed at this little coffee/liquor place which stays up 24/7.. We laughed and things and it was nice to talk to her again. We used to only talk about tea and wings...But now we're also talking about coffee and random things (haha, that rhymes, I'm a poet).
We got bored and I decided to order up some liquor... because I was bored and I drink when I'm bored. I supposed that Lil was not unfamiliar with liquor since she's generally considered a thug, and she's also a princess.

Guess I was wrong.

She's very easily drunk. She was spouting out some non-sense... well, some made sense, but I don't think she'll like me very much if I put them here. She also got up and did a little crazy dance... the crazy part was that she was dancing energetically to an easy going music all alone. Because, as I said, it was a coffee place. They are calm places, coffee shops.
The cruel (i guess you can put it that way) part was that I didn't stop her from dancing. I just watched. No, it wasn't in the least bit sexy, but it was hella entertaining. I took her home when she started pulling me to dance with her.

I got to see Spurtmear's face (unfortunately, they're roomies), so me and Lil are even whether she likes it or not.

still, it was fun. I shall upload the pictures once I feel like it.

M rated stuff

I shared my worries with Lei (And when I say "worries" I mean Winogradksi's bandanna). And he was more than happy and willing to help me out. What a friend... :-)

NOT. The douche gave me another (possibly more disturbing) problem. He told me to try and eavesdrop on Jan Jan's conversations on the phone every now and then... And then he smiled at me oddly... So it made me really really really curious about Jan Jan's phone conversations. The problem? I couldn't catch him talking on the phone.
And then there was that one night. I couldn't sleep. I was thinking about Tama's bandanna... I was actually considering stealing it that very night, or at least take a peek on whether he takes it off when he sleeps. You know? (not that I'm a creeper) ...But then I heard Jan Jan talking. ON THE PHONE!! This was it! The moment I had been waiting for.

And...it was absolutely disturbing. Just...my goodness. It's M rated stuff. M rated. I should not have been listening. I tried to go to sleep but... hearing it? Made me not sleep and more curious. So I had to listen through the whole conversation.

Why the hell does Lei know about this stuff?

Well, I guess he'd know because he's really close to both Luca and Jan Jan... And I'm not really close to Luca. We barely talk. It was always awkward to be left alone with him.

I will never be able to view him in the same way ever again. o_o

JUST ASK HIM

Holy mother of casseroles!
I can't take it anymoooooore!!

*Breathes heavily* Okay, so let me explain why I'm cursing casseroles. It's because I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't think properly ANYMORE. ...Okay. So maybe that was an exaggeration. But it feels somehow like that. And the cause behind this...this absurd episode? Tama Winogradski's bandanna.
YES. I KNOW. I'm actually paying attention to him! That's, like, something I mentally swore never to ever do!

It's hard not to look, okay? His seat is in bloody front of me. And it the tail dangles mockingly before my eyes! AAHRGH. I'm going insane. All I honestly want to do right now is pull the damn bandanna. I just want to pull it! My fingers are itching to pull iiiittt.
And now, every time Tama's near my eyes just get stuck on his head.

He must think I'm a creeper, but nonetheless LOVES the attention. It sickens me to think of that... But I just can't stop thinking about it.
I think that if he allows me to pull it just once, I'll get over this... I should just ask him, right? I should... But... Why am I so scared to ask him? JUST ASK HIM.

Lucky in love

I am the luckiest dude to ever, ever live! :-D I sit beside my dearly beloved Paris and I'm just so happy. She's talking to me, but I tease her a lot and we argue most of the time... But it's playful, so no harm done.

And Tomo is far away, so yippie!
Also Lei. :-) ... but I don't appreciate Devereux's presence much... He's a pretty strange being, you know. Pretty strange, indeed.

qucik note :-9

I'm hungry so i'll make this quick.

I spent the break at Castor, continuing the work that I didn't finish. Yes, it was enjoyable (sarcasm).
I have Grey and Blue as siblings and they can pretty much drive me bonkers. Rivalry? Oh yes.

Now, it's time to EAT.

So far...

I am seated beside this gay boy and a human being. What do you expect me to write? What does anyone expect me to write? And also, Lil has been poking the back of my head. Which is VERY irritating.

Of course, Paris is seated near me... So I have someone that's mine to bug.
Nigel Thorton  has been talking to me this week. He wasn't talking to me at first, not until he found out I'm an AI. He seems very interested in that. Guess he's a geek. He should go with Ceika dude.

I've been spending most of my time with either Jan or Paris. I sometimes chat with Lil and Meygan, sometimes Mai. Never Lei. He's out of it or something stupid like that.

Nighty night. I'll rape Jan again tonight ;)

I'd rather

I'm back in Castor again. Finally, I can do what I need to do. It's been busy so I didn't have the time to post. I have only a day left and then I have to travel to WCA. Damn. I need to finish everything up.

Blue has decided to help me out even though he's a pridey mcpridey pants. I think he was built for good... But he's really very arrogant, so maybe not.

I really don't feel like going to WCA, though. I know I can be able to see Paris, but I'd rather stay here instead.

Missing you

What light is light, if Paris be not seen?
And what joy is joy, if Paris be not by?

I miss Paris sooo much. I just saw her a few days ago and now I miss her all over again. We swam. I taught her (and Tomo) how to swim. I got to touch her waist. :">

Pout

I'm in Apollo... and I'm not happy at all.

Well, sure, I'm with my friends, yeah, haha, that's fun. But I have a lot of things I need to do back at Castor... And I just really want to finish them.

The stupid letter


Dear Zonvelf the birdie,

            How’s it going? How are the wings? Are they finally capable of flying you away somewhere far? Somewhere, like, let’s say… APOLLO. Come on, man (bird). Visit us sometimes! The last time we saw you was during Christmas…And you only stayed for two fucking days and one fucking night. What kind of a friend are you?? 

You know, Lei’s back from his ridiculous journey. It’s so ridiculous, isn’t it? I can’t believe he went through that ridiculousness just because some Vinny dude said so. He’s really talkative, Lei. He’s boasting about all the things he’s seen and been through. I can’t take his crap anymore! Come here already, you selfish bitch! Sacrifice yourself to save us from Lei!

Oh, and you know what? It’s summer! You know what summer means, right? It means Nymph season! We get to see chicks(har har)! I mean, babes. You want to see that, right?
So come back already!! You have all the reasons to!! And I don’t want to hear that “I’m loyal to my Paris” crap you always say. Come on, she’s not even your girlfriend yet!

P.S. Hey!! It’s Alfie! I just want to say hi and please come here and play with us. It’s no fun when it’s just the five of us. COME ON, please??

P.S.S. It’s Jan! Please visit us. I’m going to Uni soon, and this might be our last chance to be together like before. :)

P. S. S. S. I don’t really mind if you don’t come. Actually, I’d rather you stay away from us. –Luca.

Double P. S. S. Hugo is an idiot. Guess who?



......From your ever endearing friend, Hugo.

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I recieved this stupid letter and my guardian saw, so now I am forced to go to Apollo. Ugh. I'm in no mood to see those fuckers, though.
And what the hell are they saying?? I can't even read their hand writing!!

Of friendship

I went to bed last night but I found myself unable to sleep. I don't know why, but Lei kept slipping in my train of thoughts... And really? Thinking of Lei? At night? These things aren't supposed to happen when you're, like, seventeen.

But it's not like I was thinking of anything that would place my gender in question... It was mostly about friendship and his stupid journey. And the way he looked when I told him he was such an idiot...he looked kinda hurt, or conscious at least. Normally he wouldn't care.... and normally I wouldn't care...

Why am I thinking about him anyway? Why only now?

To keep myself distracted, I listed all the close friends I have (Or used to have)... And it turns out that I'm actually quite close to some people I haven't been thinking about anymore.

Like Lil... Back on Earth, when everyone was going haywire, we just sat at one corner, drank tea and talked about how we both have wings. At first it was just about wings, but we started talking about theater, and music and silly things and things that mattered.... And we have that sort of bond... like, like talking buddies or something.

Same goes for Meygan. There was that one time when Paris hurt my feelings (yet again) so I was feeling all depressed... And then Meygan was tying her shoes and saw me inside the closet thing (Paris put me there). Meygan was kind enough to pull me out. And I was talking and talking and talking about Paris and my feelings and how she's always so mean... And that's the longest time I've seen Meygan not say anything (She's sort of the chatty kind, you know?)... And she understood and things and we talked a bit and it was nice and pleasant and friendly.
We never had a long conversation like that again, but we occasionally chatted.

I really miss talking like that to those two. I am so talking to them when we get back to uni.

....

What is up with me and friendship these days??

Nothing but Nonce, my friend. Nothing but Nonce...

I AM A GOOD PERSON!

Hip hip horay!

Lately, I've been finding Tomo a bit nutty. As in, he's always so pissed about something and always picking fights. Maybe he has his period? Haha! Peace out, dude.

So I am still in Castor. I've been busy. And things like that...
You know when you hate life, and it starts hating back?

I'm gonna spend time with him!

Did. You. Hear?

: D

I heard Jan is going to WCA with us! Jan! Jan Jan! Him of all people! I can't believe it... 
He likes to travel, though. Maybe this is a dream? And he's never been out of the planet. He doesn't know anything but Apollo... How is he going to take WCA and the weird people in it?

Well, I'll be his guide! I'm going to show him the right path... like introducing him to the right people and food, and pulling him as far away as possible from Paris. I mean, Jan has never seen a girl before, other than the nymphs. And he's never been so near girls... He's going to feel nervous!

Plus, he talks to sheep. He will really needs my help.  

Chop a TREE!

I have another tree to chop... Mark. He dares touch my girl!!
And, heh. It's a lonely Valentine's Day. Stupid Castor. ): |

La première

'sup?

After much adieu... Here is my very first 2010 entry!!!

Grand, ain't it?
No...?
Awell.

I've been busy, you know? I've actually been attending some classes in Uranus. Such a... misty place, Uranus. And I've also been running errands for Castor. I mean... He is there. As well as Jules. I miss him.
Other than that, I'm scheduled to kill some SEAN guy. Who the fuck does he think he is?
ANYWAY. I've been told by Jules that he wants me back in Castor.. because???? Sadly he didn't give the details as to WHY he wants me back. Hmm. Think. Think. What would he want me there back for????

I dunno! But I'll be going on Friday, I think.