Of friendship

I went to bed last night but I found myself unable to sleep. I don't know why, but Lei kept slipping in my train of thoughts... And really? Thinking of Lei? At night? These things aren't supposed to happen when you're, like, seventeen.

But it's not like I was thinking of anything that would place my gender in question... It was mostly about friendship and his stupid journey. And the way he looked when I told him he was such an idiot...he looked kinda hurt, or conscious at least. Normally he wouldn't care.... and normally I wouldn't care...

Why am I thinking about him anyway? Why only now?

To keep myself distracted, I listed all the close friends I have (Or used to have)... And it turns out that I'm actually quite close to some people I haven't been thinking about anymore.

Like Lil... Back on Earth, when everyone was going haywire, we just sat at one corner, drank tea and talked about how we both have wings. At first it was just about wings, but we started talking about theater, and music and silly things and things that mattered.... And we have that sort of bond... like, like talking buddies or something.

Same goes for Meygan. There was that one time when Paris hurt my feelings (yet again) so I was feeling all depressed... And then Meygan was tying her shoes and saw me inside the closet thing (Paris put me there). Meygan was kind enough to pull me out. And I was talking and talking and talking about Paris and my feelings and how she's always so mean... And that's the longest time I've seen Meygan not say anything (She's sort of the chatty kind, you know?)... And she understood and things and we talked a bit and it was nice and pleasant and friendly.
We never had a long conversation like that again, but we occasionally chatted.

I really miss talking like that to those two. I am so talking to them when we get back to uni.

....

What is up with me and friendship these days??